Hey guys,
I first wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year, I hope you had amazing holidays even though it's always been a month now. I was pretty overwhelmed during the holidays since I had to move and work and it just so happened that there was a bunch of stuff happening at the same time on top of it being the holidays.
I first wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year, I hope you had amazing holidays even though it's always been a month now. I was pretty overwhelmed during the holidays since I had to move and work and it just so happened that there was a bunch of stuff happening at the same time on top of it being the holidays.
Now that I have some free time I decided to share one of my new projects for the next 100 days. You heard that right 100 days, and that’s 100 consecutive I’m talking about.
I decided to focus on 100 days of positivity. I challenged myself to post on my instagram page a picture with a positive message for a solid 100 days, or even better, for the rest of my life.
I know, I know, I won’t get ahead of myself, so let's start with 100 days for now.
You probably wonder why I have decided to do this.
You probably wonder why I have decided to do this.
Well, put simply, like everyone else I have ups and downs, and to be completely transparent with you guys, since I moved back to Canada and don't have basketball as a full time job, my life hasn't been all butterflies, sunshine and flowers. I try to put on a good front, but in reality my life isn't perfect. Sometimes we forget that feelings like sadness, anger, anxiousness, confidence, fear, and self-doubt are all normal, very human feelings. Vulnerability is very hard to put out there for everyone to see because you don't want people to see you or perceive you in certain ways, or even worse, straight up judge you.
Who cares? I do. I can't say I don't because that would be lying to you and myself.
Who cares? I do. I can't say I don't because that would be lying to you and myself.
For the longest time I cared a lot about what people thought of me, what they might think if I tell them how I really felt when they did something, or said something or acted a certain way toward me and even now I still sometimes care. It’s difficult to put these feelings aside and it will always be a work in progress. We’re human. We have thoughts about our own thoughts. Think about it for a minute.
Like me, do you sometimes feel like you have to put up a front when you’re with other people because you’ve automatically assumed their life is great and beautiful? You don’t want them to think you are going through some rough time so you smile and hide it from them...
...but would it be a problem if you’re honest and tell them, “I’m having a bad day.” Seriously, though. You may be thinking, “Can I feel that way if I want to?”, “Can I cry?”, “Can I scream?” The answer is simple: yes, you can. I'm tired of apologizing for feeling a certain way because society says everyone should be happy 24/7.
That’s not reality. I’m sorry to pop your wonderful, perfect bubble. Life is not all blooming flowers, sunshine and rainbows all the time.
That’s the reason why I decided to do this, its because even though your life isn’t perfect someone else in the world feels exactly the same way. You can either just stay negative about everything in your life or you can acknowledge things, resolve them and turn them into something positive.
It is so easy to have negative thoughts when things are going wrong and so easy to stay positive when things are going your way. When things are going downhill and you still see a positive outcome could come from it that makes you stronger. I believe that the best way to become a better person, to learn and move forward is to stand up when times are rough not when times are easy. You learn a great deal from overcoming your failures, correcting your mistakes and solving your problems than when everything is smooth and easy riding.
I have a lot of insecurities, body image issues, and fears and like you I'm scared. I wanted to do this for me. I wanted to get out of my shell, try to be vulnerable and share things that go through my little head. If you knew the stuff that goes on you’d be exhausted, but I know I’m not alone in this, and so I’m able.
Even though I have these thoughts what's stopping me to sharing them with people? If I can just connect with 1 or 2 people I would be the happiest person. I'm trying to be okay with being vulnerable because for the longest time I've been scared to show my true feelings and emotions because I didn't want people to perceive me as fragile or sensitive. For me it was a sign of weakness. Slowly I am realizing that it is a sign of strength, understanding, positivity, and overall just being okay with myself. I want you to know as well that it is okay to feel this way, and trust me, I know how hard it is, you just have to train your mind to be okay.
This is what is happening to my thoughts, they’re training themselves to just “be okay”, it sucks but I won’t let it define me or stop me from doing what I need to do. Look, if I do this, really change this or try to resolve it this way then something positive will come out of this experience. It might not be the expected outcome but it’s a lesson learned, so if the issue arises again to you or to someone you know you’ll know how to react, you’ll know what you should do or not do. You’ll know what steps to take to resolve the issue and you’ll grow from that experience instead of avoiding it.
Well, that's what my 100 days of positivity is.
Those are the reason why I decided to start 100 days of positivity and I would be the happiest person if any of you decide to join me in that challenge. I would love to read and listen to what you have to say. I want to hear about your stories, experiences, good or bad. All of you, you probably don't know but every single one of you inspire me to be better, to think better and just do better. I am so thankful to all my friends, family, people that take the time to read these words. I just hope I can make a little difference in someones life and maybe you will feel comfortable enough to talk to me because I would love to listen to what you have to say.
Please share, I'm here to listen and not make judgement. I would be glad to be an outside ear for you if ever you need advice or want another opinion. You have no idea how much I like to help people. No matter if they are my friends or random people. I feel very honored to be a shoulder, an ear to anyone who needs it.
So come on board and let's do this 100 days of positivity. Are you guys with me?
